I got up early this morning, did some yoga, said my prayers, talked to family. I Love them.
I decided to keep it moving, in a different way. I’m not going to try and force Dream Lover out of my heart. It’s funny the way getting over people works. Trying to get over someone and force them out of my heart has never really worked for me. What has always worked is that one day I wake up in the morning and I realize that I didn’t think of my lost love the day before. I am able to see the relationship clearly, and after some evaluation, I come to see that the relationship is no longer the space for me.
So, I’m going out of the country. Final answer. I’m going to work really hard in the next couple of weeks so that I can finance myself during and after the trip. I’m going to find some work to do over seas that will move me towards establishing my international lifestyle. I’m also going to go full force with submitting for agents and production companies, so hopefully I will be overseas somewhere, check my voicemail or email, and find that when I come back to the States I will be finally working as a writer.
I’m in Love today. Not with Dream Lover, but with life. I’m deciding not to be sad about him, and not to be mad about him, just to let him go. This is it. There is a choice. I have a choice. I can choose to live a good life. The choice has to be made, otherwise you will be influenced by all of the lives of the many people around you. Many people have not made that choice. They have chosen subconsciously to have a life full of drama or, in the words of M. Beckwith, they have decided that life is hard and then you die.
Here’s the thing. Once you make a choice about something and you stick to it, other people have to get with your program or keep moving. Some things you can compromise with and sometimes people are willing to modify their behavior so that they can be around you. I work in the education system, and I am always amazed at how you can go into one teacher’s classroom and see several students just acting wild and crazy, and then you see those same students with another teacher and they are well behaved. It has nothing to do with the students. It has everything to do with the teachers and the standards they have set.
One teacher decides that certain behavior is unacceptable and she creates systems to reinforce her expectations. Another teacher either never makes a decision about what she is going to accept or she doesn’t follow through with actions.
So, I’m choosing a good life. Period. No exceptions, not even for Dream Lover. I’ve got some of it together already, but a good life also includes healthy relationships with people that I bring close to me. Healthy relationships have a foundation of integrity and good-will and are nurtured by honest communication. That is what I am creating. I am choosing financial freedom, which is achieved by making daily efforts to use my skills, knowledge and talent to find ways to increase my passive income… I can do this. We can do this.
We don’t have to keep doing the same things over and over and over again. We don’t have to remain stuck in a place. If someone leaves your life, you won’t die, I promise. If you change your job or lose it, you won’t starve. Very few people ever die of hunger. If you choose a good life even in the midst of despair and hopelessness, if you open yourself to the idea that there is a way where there seems to be no way, then the Universe responds to your intention.
Yeah, I can have a good life. I am actually having it. I choose a good life. I choose a good life. I choose a good life.
Thank you God. Ameen.
Day 68
Choose A Good Life
I’m in the South today. All the fams is getting together to be there for my mom when she comes back from her pilgrimage…
Completely different vibe all the way. Suburbs. Kids riding bikes. Trees and big clean streets with very few sidewalks and fewer homeless people. Not so much to do around here, except spend time with each other or watch TV. Everyone has a flat screen and even the ghetto housing is big and spacious. Good, fatty food places everywhere. Big portions. Everything is bigger here.
But it’s quiet. I like quiet, but it’s a different kind of quiet here. Settled. So much different than the busy, active, ambitious big city life. I’m not sure which one I like better…
Debating about whether to go out of the country soon or stay in my good old US of A. I think I’m going but I’ve got to work out the financials. Dream Lover called again. He says he wants to go with me, but I think he’s lying. Why is he always lying to me? Better yet, why do I continue to let him?
I’m supposed to be waiting for him to decide when “soon” is; when he is going to arrive in my city, when we are going to go to Africa, when we are going to get together. He disappears and then reappears, tells me everything I’ve ever dreamed of hearing, makes promises about “soon” and then never comes through. All the while I sit and wait and hope… I feel a bit stupid right now.
It happens, I guess. We get stuck on the promise of something. I guess wisdom is knowing when to act and when to sit still. I feel disempowered waiting for him. I feel stupid. I can’t tell anyone about our relationship because it sucks. I really don’t know what his issue is, but at the end of the day, no matter how you spin it, moving forward with me is just not the most important thing to him. Resentment developing. Distrust already planted deep. Don’t want these feelings. How about I do something different now? Leave him alone. Continue to live my life. Falling out of Love. Makes me sad a bit because I like being in Love, but I like being happy more than I like being in Love…
My ex fiance once sent me a horrible email in which he entitled it “Here’s to Moving Forward”. In the email, he put a picture of the engagement ring that he said he got for me and told me that he’s taking it back and moving forward…
Sometimes the people that you want to ride along with in life just aren’t ready to ride with you. You can sit still. Maybe it’s worth it. Sometimes sitting still kills you, though, and you have to move forward. I have to go now… Here’s to moving forward.
Day 67
Stop Waiting
This evening I went looking up folks on Facebook, and I found the page of the one guy that I wanted to be with who had ever rejected me. He used to be a real cocky unhappy something, and when I looked on his page, it seemed like his life had transformed. He looked all nice and happy and humble and he seemed to be living the kind of life that he had talked about creating years ago… I’m happy for him.
A long, long time ago ex invited me to meet up for dinner with him tonight. I didn’t go. I heard his tone under the words he spoke and what he was really saying is “let’s get back together”.
Now I’m sitting in my room after about three days of being on “go”, and I’m glad to have this time to reflect.
And what’s on my mind is the words that the man who didn’t want me told me years ago. At the time, I was at the beginning of my life falling apart. We were losing the house that we had bought for my mom, I seemed to be flunking out of grad school, I was new to the “big city” and I was surrounded by guys who wanted these “big city” relationships, where you’re never really in a relationship but you kind-of are. I was telling the man who didn’t want me how I wanted to do all this stuff with my life, and he told me, in so many words, to stop talking about it and do it.
I’m so glad to see that he is doing it. He looks better than ever… It’s inspiring to see people make profound positive changes in their lives… I’d like to be like him one day. I am already becoming like him, but I’m going to step it up a notch now. It really doesn’t take that long to change your life. My life has changed profoundly in the course of three months, and I’m just getting started.
My Dream Lover has gotten back in touch and keeps telling me about what a dream life we are going to have, but I’m tired of hearing him talk now. I mean, he sounds lovely, but talk is cheap, and too much cheap talk without action will leave you broke. Not interested. I was afraid to tell him that he needs to take some actions and step it up a notch because, to be honest, I’ve never met anyone who seemed more perfectly matched for me and was actually interested in being with me, but the truth is, I can’t be in a sorry relationship anymore. I’m too good for all that. Literally. As Ntozage Shange said, “My Love is too sanctified to have thrown back in my face”… He ain’t acting right and that’s OK. I did my best. I really, really did my best at being open and Loving and I didn’t even ‘cuss him out when I was mad. I didn’t cheat on him, not even in my thoughts, and I held a space for him…
So, this is how you live life, You say. Love him anyway, and be thankful, whether he is doing the things you like or not. Set the tone for your life and stick to it and the rest will fall into place. Do your part and leave the rest to Me. This is what is called faith. This is how you live with no regrets. Do your part and stay open. Be about the words you speak…
So, in this spirit of the man who told me to get up off my *ss and stop talking, I’m going to end this writing for the night and get some other work done.. . One step at a time, baby. One step at a time…
Day 66
Be About It
Got a lot on my mind today. Writing with my eyes closed because my head hurts a bit. Been on “go” for the past 24 hours. Challenging day today. Had a lot to do. Did most of it.
Worst day ever tutoring my godson. Put in applications for my cousins to come to the U.S. They did their part and I’m glad about that. Went to work. Paid rent. RSVP’d for screenwriting meeting. Edited script. Booked flight to see mom. Researched out-of-country flights for near future… prayed a bit (not as much as I’d like). 11:40 pm. Still to do: yoga set, positive brainwashing, at least one page of creative writing, pick up sis, sleep.
An ex called me to ask if I needed help with anything. When I told him what I needed help with, something he could easily do, he said he couldn’t help and then called to explain why… He tried to down me earlier for being so busy… Hmm…
I get to choose.
Dream lover hasn’t called in two days. Maybe he fell into a schizophrenic coma. lol… beyond upset or disappointed.
I get to choose how I’d like to respond to this day. First instinct is to cry and get on the bed and start feeling sorry for myself because I have so much to do and it feels like nobody loves me today. This will inevitably lead to a downward spiral which may last indefinitely. I don’t want to do that. So, I think I’ll choose to do something different.
In the past, I would dump godson and put ex on the “do not disturb” list in my mind and heart. I’d call or text Dream Lover and tell him how much I hate him and tell him to leave me alone or something like that, and then I’d be all mad and try and find all the ways people have hurt me until I get good and depressed…
Today must be a new day for real, because I’m not going to do any of that now. Nope. In this instant, I am releasing all of them to the care of the One who created the wind. Wow. There is actually compassion in my heart. I know that if we knew better we would do better. So, for myself, I invite only loving interactions from them. My life and my happiness really has nothing to do with any particular individual. It has everything to do with the tone that I set for myself, and so in this instant I am resetting my tone. I bless my own self with Love. I Love you, girl, and I will be your cheerleader. Don’t worry, you will have more cheerleaders than you care for soon. But for now, know that I am proud of you for choosing to be happy and grateful in this moment. If ever you feel like you have no one else, remember that you have yourself, and I will always Love you and bring you back to the light should you choose it to be so.
Dream Lover is quite a dream and I bless him that one day he is brave and faithful enough to actually be the man that I know he is. But I am not stuck on the idea that he will be mine… It’s OK if he’s not. I open myself up to love anyway, whomever and however it may come, and I hold no malice against him for not being who I want when I want. He is free to walk the path he chooses. He is free to be himself. I trust that what is for me is for me and I prepare the space in my heart and in my life for a mighty, mighty lasting Love. Thank you, God, in advance.
And as far as ex… whatever. Whatever, whatever, whatever. Whatever, you know?
I won’t abandon my godson. He’s just a kid. I’m gonna love him. Somebody’s daughter will thank me one day…
So that’s it. I’m going to do my yoga set… I love being able to get things out in this way. It really helps me to get back in touch with what is important. In the 45 minutes that I have taken to write this, life seems easy again. What a trip… Thanks for being with me on this journey. Thanks for reading… May each of your days be ever more joyful than the last. God Bless…
Day 65
Do Something Different
Another wonderful day off. I Love having the time to work on things that are important to me…
Today, I think I finished memorizing the 99 names of God (I’m not sure if I missed one of the basic ones). According to a particular religious tradition, there are 99 names (faces or aspects) of the Creator. A person who memorizes these names goes to Heaven. I think I was inspired to read the names because I was interested in learning the different aspects of the Creator, so that when I pray, I can call upon certain qualities that I may need assistance with…
Anyway, I feel great today, and my blog is moving to another level, probably the last for this particular sharing. It is the stage of blossoming. It happens after you have learned to stop crying, removed the drama from your life and gone through all the necessary withdrawals. It comes after you have sat down and decided what truth and righteousness (right – use – ness) means to you and practiced those principals in your daily life and decisions… You have no idea. I can’t believe that I am sitting here typing this blog feeling happy and able. Praise God…
So after all of the stuff is cleared, and there is always more stuff to be cleared, but after you’ve got to a certain point, other things are easy. I think life is like doing the splits. You have to change some things around if you want to do them. You know, don’t eat so much ice cream. You have to get rid of your fat belly and things in the way and stretch out your stiff unused muscles and exercise so that you gain flexibility. Commit to a practice, and finally, one day, you do the splits. But then, that’s not it, because who just wants to sit on the floor doing the splits all day. Now that you know what to do, and now that you are at a certain level of strength and flexibility, you can dance! Go to a ballet class, modern, or jazz, and it won’t take that long for you to catch on. You still have to cut down on the fats and practice, and you still have to be careful to maintain good posture and not go too long without stretching, but you can move on to the creation part of life now. That is where I am. I did the splits today and now I’d like to do some dancing…
A very prominent writer has agreed to give me notes on my script, and I have a meeting with a popular singer, whom I wrote a song for a while ago. There is a man who Loves me and is willing and able to hold my hand and walk with me through this life. I have green juice in my fridge and pink flowers blow in the wind outside of my window. My life is beckoning, and, I don’t want to say it, but I can’t believe this is my life! This is my life now. It is a good life that I like to be a part of…
So now, I learned this morning in my meditations that at some point, you will be able to see your life, all of it, like you are sitting in a glass compartment and your life is right there on the outside of you. This is the crossroads of the giants. Your mind will tell you no, for so many reasons. How dare you cross over when those other people you know haven’t? No, you don’t deserve that. That’s too much. You’re being greedy. Your mind will say, no, you wanted to accomplish everything on your own so that you can say me me me me! I did that! You can’t possibly let a man pay your bills or stand by you and push you into the manifestation of your dreams! Your mind will give you every reason to stop now, and this is the point that you tell your mind to shut up.
This is what I am doing… I am inside of the glass peering at the magnificent possibility of my life, of which I have yet to see the best. I am saying yes, God. Yes. Yes. I know that there are many layers to life. Yes, God, I choose to cross over to the other side now. I even choose for it to be easy. Yes, I know it can be easy. Yes, I allow my mind to change so that my thoughts will be supportive of the new life I am creating and they will fuel my actions so that I demonstrate Your Will. I say yes. Yes to living my best life now. Yes to being a beneficial presence on this planet. Yes to having all of the resources that I need to fulfill my life’s work. Yes, God. Yes to Love and good food every day. Yes to Love. Yes to Love. Yes to giving and receiving a greater Love than I have ever imagined. You have done so much for me. I am in awe of Your Grace. Thank You. Yes. Yes. Yes yes yes…
My will in thee is faith, not fear… Wisdom, not foolishness… Health, not disease… My will within thee is thy awareness of My love for thee; let My will within thee be done. – M.A.W.
Day 64
Say Yes
Good morning. It’s early morning. That good time before people wake up and remember what their lives are about.
I’m feeling really peaceful. My runaway Dream Lover called me this weekend and brainwashed me with his magic words. It seemed different this time, magic seemed possible and his words didn’t put me in a state of debilitating desperation and fear, so we’ll see…
This weekend was so wonderful. I got a quick glimpse of life on the other side of happy and I realize that I’m almost there. The speaker at my spiritual center asked us, “Are you willing to be so great that people might be jealous of you?” I said yes even though I didn’t mean it completely. I’m going to keep saying it. Today I feel like running through these changes instead of strolling. There’s a fire in my feet!
So this weekend, I spent time with an ex-boyfriend of mine. We had a really good time. Deep conversation. He asked me in so many words why I don’t just get with someone instead of waiting for my “knight in shining armor”. I told him that my knight in shining armor was coming, and I actually felt sure about it when I said it…
Later in the weekend I was feeling low because I still had my runaway love on my heart, and I didn’t know how to get him off. Everyone else had just fallen off one way or the other and I had become OK with the thought that I would never be with them, but this one… he was in so deep and I didn’t know what to do about him. So I did what I do when I don’t know what to do. I prayed. I prayed and I told God that I was willing to release him. For the first time, I said that I was willing to accept the fact that he might not be my husband. I was willing to let go of him and accept whatever God had for me. I was sitting in my car in front of a park and literally as I was praying, he called.
It had been several months since I heard from him, but there he was, the same but different… We talked. Like friends. We hadn’t talked that way in quite some time. We laughed. He poured his heart out and his thoughts about me sounded just like my thoughts about him. I thought, “Wow. He’s just as looney as me,” but I didn’t tell him that, because he’s just as sensitive as me too…
My sisters say don’t give him another chance. He doesn’t deserve my Love. He did this and that and didn’t do the other. But I don’t know if Love works like that, on a merit scale. I think sometimes Love chooses you, instead of you choosing it… So, I don’t really care what he did. I know I’m supposed to, and I can make myself all angry and stuff, but I actually really don’t care. He could have been off divorcing his secret wives and it wouldn’t really matter. I forgive him. I was over here releasing my secret loves while all the while telling him I was ready, so it’s OK if his ambitions got ahead of his actions and he spoke too soon. We are not perfect. What is important to me is what he is trying to create now. That is where life starts. Now. That is where Love starts. In your conscious, sincere intention. I remember a line in Jerry McGuire, so beautiful. “I Love him for the man he wants to be. I Love him for the man he almost is.” It is true. We are always evolving, if we want to.
This is how I know I am ready. I choose to be ready, not just for love, but for life. I choose it with all of my heart, I trust in it, and I am committed to it, so there is no way I can be hurt now. I know I sound crazy, but I understand it now. I am interested in doing only what’s best for me and what is best for me is that I be with someone who helps my heart rest and my womb sing. What is best for me is that I be with someone who treats me like a Queen and honors me, someone who puts me first and someone who proves himself trustworthy, so that my heart and my body will feel safe with him. What is best for me is that I be with a man who knows how to navigate the world, or is at least interested in learning, so that I feel like I have a capable partner. A man who I can pray with, go to the club with, pick up and go anywhere with, and raise happy children with is what is good for me; someone who can get along with my family and someone who will forgive me again and again (for real) when I do things to upset him. Someone who will give me second and third chances to become a new woman over and over again. What is best for me is that I be with a man who trusts God. My brother was right after all. A smart, strong, and brave man. A man who is not afraid of gangsters anywhere in the world.
This man is the kind of man that makes me want to get up in the morning and do some yoga. This is the man that makes me want to write poetry and be strong. It’s important, you know, that we wake up next to someone who helps us to be our best… My runaway man says he’s all that and a bag of chips. He’s pretty bold and funny… I’ve finally learned something in all my man wars, so I tell him to put his money where his mouth is. I am only going to do what is best for me. He says he will and he is, so OK. I give him the opportunity to be different this time around. I think he’s strong, so I know he can be the man he wants to be, so I’ll hold that space for him. That’s what people do when they Love you. Wow. I am actually making a clear-minded non-desperate decision to Love a man on purpose and be committed to him. I haven’t told him all of this yet, but I am building a nest in myself, for him or whoever fits the above description, but for now, its him unless God inspires me another way. I’ll be that woman who they talk about for forgiving again and again. It’s OK. He can’t hurt me anymore. I have learned to trust in God and not in men and so I trust that God will lead me the right way as long as I walk in the direction that I am led. Let Love come as it will, through whom it will. I am open. I am open. I am open… Ameen.
Day 63
Open Up
It’s 3:25 in th emorning. I love this time of morning. It’s quiet and peaceful. Some of my neighbors have their lights on. I wonder if they are up too, making love, contemplating, cleaning up, doing work…
Today I turned in the first screenwriting submission that I have turned in in over two years. I actually spent time with my little sister and enjoyed her company. I had an amazingly great day at work, and I made a business decision which was in my best interest. I think I’m finally learning how to get along on this planet… hmm…
After you have done all that you have to do, after you find yourself sitting in a place of discontent, after you have gotten off the bed, after you have given it all up, you get to make a choice. You get to learn from your mistakes and maybe, if you can get over your ego and admit that, yes, it is all your fault, you get to do something about it. Just a small thing starts miracles.
This is the simplest, most profound secret. In our choosing, in our action, starts the process of creation, and the process begins no matter what you do, as long as you do something. Say a prayer, go for a walk, write a blog, finish the smallest of projects, say hi to a stranger, decide to do a kind act, say sorry, break up with someone, get back with someone, forgive someone, decide to no longer give yourself to someone who is harming you… they are little things, but in them is the power of birth.
Today I decided to trust my instincts and do what was best for me, even though it might have hurt the feelings of someone I love, and in that simple decision, the decision not to give an idea that I value to someone without protecting it, I feel pieces of me coming back. Literally, my body and brain feel like they are saying, “Thank you. We’ve been waiting for you to stop being a dud.”… I release the need to try and please others and I allow myself to be surrounded with people who like me as I am. Can you imagine? Maybe you can, but it is a great life shift for me.
I am learning. I am learning to be happy. I am learning to be truly brave. I am learning to trust trustworthy people and I am also learning how to communicate with compassion. And as I learn these things, it is becoming easier for me to be nice, which is actually my natural state of being. It is easy for me to be nice, because I surround myself with people who I trust won’t hurt me. What a concept! I don’t have to be angry anymore. What a relief. I don’t have to be guarded because I can be around people who accept me as I am. And I don’t have to be afraid anymore because I know that my joy, my prosperity, and my salvation are not dependent on any human being, but are strictly dependent upon the decisions that I make and the direction that I set my attention… Wow. I can be myself. I am learning to be myself… What a life!
Day 62
Learn From Your Past
I have done this one before but it is one of my favorites. Woke up early today so have a chance to sit still before I go in to work.
So thankful. I am alive. So thankful I am sane. So thankful my body is healthy and my fingers and eyes work. So thankful I have so many people to Love and so many people who Love me. So thankful I can go and earn some money today, which will then enable me to buy green juice, pay my rent, and travel places. Thankful for this one day out of many days out of a lifetime out of many lifetimes that I can sit still and remember that this existence is a blessing. Thankful for this day that I am not sad, I am not crying, my mind is at peace and my heart is not aching. Thankful that the worst has passed. Thankful for the car that I am using to go to work. Thankful for the money to buy gas.
Thankful for all of the help that I am not aware of. Thankful for the guidance that has been provided for us through books, messengers, and our own inspiration and instinct. Thankful that God is for me and not against me. God is for me and not against me. God is for me and not against me. With this knowledge I start my day.
Ameen.
Day 60
Give Thanks (Again)
Closet cleaned. Clothes folded, ironed, hung up and packed. All clothes. Not used to seeing such organization. A miracle in my world, really…
It seems like such a big deal to finally complete things. Breaking old habits and getting used to new stuff can be daunting, even if the new stuff is good for you. We have been conditioned to keep our sanity by establishing and maintaining habits…
So, I welcome the breakdowns now. They don’t last forever (I hope). Let the new habits begin.
There are a few things I want to talk about today so I haven’t figured out the heading yet, but it will come before I’m done writing. I’m floating in the in-between. Not particularly inspired or uninspired. Not happy or sad. No big drama going on in my life. I mean, I could keep the thing with my sister going, but I don’t really want to. I have money in the bank and green juice in the fridge. My mamma loves me and my sister does too, and I really don’t have anything to complain about.
I mean, sure, the friends and man thing aren’t ideal, and the professional thing isn’t quite where I’d like it to be, but those things seem easy to me now, instead of seeming impossible. I don’t know why they seem easy, because they are still the same things that seemed difficult a couple months ago, but it has been my experience that when things seem easy for me in my life, they are easy. Perhaps I have finally gone mad. That’s even all right with me… lol.
Anyway, moving forward. I’d like to talk about enemies today. Well, I don’t really want to talk about them, but it seems like a necessary evil (get it? ha ha). I’ll keep it brief. Enemies exist. I have been in denial about this for some time, but the truth is, there are people and forces who wish to harm you whether or not you have done them any harm, but especially if they feel you have done something that goes against their program.
This could be anything, like being with a man they want, or just being with a man period (which makes them feel jealous and inferior). It could be the fact that you are happy (wealthy, at peace, successful, good-looking, funny, smart, Loved) and they feel like they aren’t. Maybe you dumped them or passed them over for a job or position and bruised their ego or shook their concept of themselves. It could be that you are a certain race or religion and you don’t think that the people who feel like they are supposed to be superior to you are superior to you. It could be that you grew up in a certain environment where people weren’t doing well, and then you had the audacity to leave and/or change your way of life and the folks you grew up with take it as an insult. They want to be the most or best whatever and will go to great lengths to destroy you if they think you are better than them… This is a hard pill for me to swallow, but it’s real. No matter what you do, how nice you are, how much money you give them, how many positive prayers you send in their direction, there will be people who just don’t like you. They may even hate you and try to harm you. Look at Beyonce, the pope, the president, religious leaders, amazing teachers, healers, doctors and scientists, they all have people who hate them for various reasons. Even Mother Theresa had haters! What makes us think that everyone is going to like us?
Yesterday, a friend of mine brought to my attention that many of my close friends have also been my enemies, meaning that they don’t wish good for me. I mean they would probably save me if they saw a bus about to hit me, but they would be the same ones to push me in front of the bus under certain circumstances. It’s really not something I like to think about… But what to do?
Different people have their own opinions… There are all kinds of ways to respond when someone wages war on you. I think its important to be aware of what is going on and then make a conscious decision on how you want to respond. Recognize the people in your life and evaluate your relationships… Some people can Love their enemies so much that it changes their enemies’s hearts. If you can do that, go ahead. But lets be honest. Many people want to be like Jesus and other prophets, but they are no where near that level of consciousness and power. What we can do in the meantime is just not hang with the people who wish us bad and say sorry to the people we have harmed. Seems simple enough.
The truth is, if you choose to, you can make a decision to trust people who have demonstrated that they are trustworthy. You can come close to people who have shown that they like you just the way you are. You can share your secrets with friends and family who have shown that, even if and when they are not doing as good as or better than you, they have your best interest at heart. There is no need to hang out with people who want to harm you, and there is no need to go about trying to harm them. It just keeps the drama going, and more often than not, it produces a negative effect on your life… I’m just realizing this. Don’t keep your enemies close. Keep them far away…
Day 59
Beware Your Enemies
