Day 62 – Learn From Your Past

It’s 3:25 in th emorning. I love this time of morning. It’s quiet and peaceful. Some of my neighbors have their lights on. I wonder if they are up too, making love, contemplating, cleaning up, doing work…

Today I turned in the first screenwriting submission that I have turned in in over two years. I actually spent time with my little sister and enjoyed her company. I had an amazingly great day at work, and I made a business decision which was in my best interest. I think I’m finally learning how to get along on this planet… hmm…

After you have done all that you have to do, after you find yourself sitting in a place of discontent, after you have gotten off the bed, after you have given it all up, you get to make a choice. You get to learn from your mistakes and maybe, if you can get over your ego and admit that, yes, it is all  your fault,  you get to do something about it. Just a small thing starts miracles.

This is the simplest, most profound secret. In our choosing, in our action, starts the process of creation, and the process begins no matter what you do, as long as you do something. Say a prayer, go for a walk, write a blog, finish the smallest of projects, say hi to a stranger, decide to do a kind act, say sorry, break up with someone, get back with someone, forgive someone, decide to no longer give yourself to someone who is harming you… they are little things, but in them is the power of birth.

Today I decided to trust my instincts and do what was best for me, even though it might have hurt the feelings of someone I love, and in that simple decision, the decision not to give an idea that I value to someone without protecting it, I feel pieces of me coming back. Literally, my body and brain feel like they are saying, “Thank you. We’ve been waiting for you to stop being a dud.”… I release the need to try and please others and I allow myself to be surrounded with people who like me as I am. Can you imagine? Maybe you can, but it is a great life shift for me.

I am learning. I am learning to be happy. I am learning to be truly brave. I am learning to trust trustworthy people and I am also learning how to communicate with compassion. And as I learn these things, it is becoming easier for me to be nice, which is actually my natural state of being. It is easy for me to be nice, because I surround myself with people who I trust won’t hurt me. What a concept! I don’t have to be angry anymore. What a relief. I don’t have to be guarded because I can be around people who accept me as I am. And I don’t have to be afraid anymore because I know that my joy, my prosperity, and my salvation are not dependent on any human being, but are strictly dependent upon the decisions that I make and the direction that I set my attention… Wow. I can be myself. I am learning to be myself… What a life!

Day 62

Learn From Your Past