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Day 204 – On Coming Back To The World…

January 7, 2013

Good morning World.

It’s before 7 am! I’m excited that I’m actually up and doing things. I’ve been having a hard time actually getting up when I said I will and doing what I planned for the past week or so.

It took everything for me to get up at 4:30 this morning, but I’m up. I’ve already done my prayers, yoga, and followed up on some pressing assignments. I’m back.

Yesterday was really hard. I had a conference call with my family about some ventures that we are about to embark upon as a group, and I was so aware of all of the underlying emotions that were driving certain aspects of  the conversation. It was really disturbing to realize that I’ve been sitting over here in my own world singing kumbayah every day, but everyone in the family hasn’t been on that program, and some people don’t even want to be on that program.

This is called coming back to the world. Reality check. We think we know ourselves in our safe little environments, surrounded by all who would agree with us and champion our every thought. But we don’t really come to know who we are until we are challenged by those who disagree with us or don’t like us. I can sit up here and meditate and say “peace peace peace forgiveness” all day long, but can I really be peaceful in the midst of others who never even thought about bringing peace? When people are arguing and fighting and hating each other, and even hating me, will I give in to it and start fighting too and harboring new resentments or will I still be able to say “peace peace peace forgiveness”?

I think I can do it, God. No, I know I can do it. I can do it. I’m gonna do it. I’m doing it. I’m coming back to the world, with all of the things You have been teaching me all of this time. I am choosing to live my life and bring the fullness of who I am back to the world. Here. Now. All of the Love. All of it. All of the courage. All of the strength. All of the genius that has been lying dormant in me for so long. All of it. Here. Now. Today.

At my spiritual center, the leader was talking about coming to the well the other day. I’d like to share with you what he said.

He was basically talking about how you can change your life, or your consciousness rather. He asserted that you may be able to “will” or manipulate your way into a temporary change in circumstances, but you will not be able to make any permanent change in your life until you change your state of consciousness. I agree with him.

So, on changing your consciousness, he said that the way to do it was to “go to the well” every day. Meaning, every day, before you get started with the worldly stuff, you sit down and deal with yourself. You sort out what’s happening in your mind and your emotions and you reach deep down into your spirit, either through prayer, meditation, reading or however you get in touch, and you bring forth whatever spiritual quality you know you need. And you know what you need. Sometimes it’s Peace of Mind. Abundance. Forgiveness. Faith. Love. Compassion… Sometimes it’s Clarity or Guidance…

He said, you go to the well of your soul and you stay there until you are nourished with what you need to start your day out right. This is where you can find the Truth and the Growth and the Change in the midst of all that is occurring in the outer world… I went there this morning and I found my Peace of Mind. I needed it. I’m coming back to the world and everyone doesn’t have peace of mind. And I’m not a baby anymore. I can’t just sequester myself to being around the peaceful people anymore. I have work to do…

Allah, I thank You for this time You have given me. This time that I have had to get to know myself. I thank You for leading me to a place of Inner Guidance and Peace and Acceptance. I thank you for this outlet that I have to sort myself out, and the energy to get off the bed even when I think it’s hard. I thank you for letting me know that anything is possible even when I think it’s hard, and that even my own thoughts have no power over me. There is a greater Power than all of our conditioning. There is a greater Truth than all of our coping mechanisms.

In the midst of it all, there is Grace. In the midst of it all, there is Guidance. There is Life waiting to unfold. I open my arms in receptivity and I say yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes, Lord, I am willing to do my part. I am willing to live the life that I am truly destined to live. I am finally willing…

Day 204

On Coming Back To The World (Or Going To The Well)

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