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Day 36 – Take Your Own Advice

September 11, 2011

A lot going on this morning. Been mixing and mingling with folks. Still haven’t quite figured out how to strike a balance when I’m around folks…

So, yesterday I came up with a topic for today’s blog, but I’m not really feeling that right now, so I’ll write about it another day.

Let me tell you what’s going on in my life. Men…

Two of my exes contacted me yesterday and I’m not clear on how to respond to them…

You see, this has been a pattern in my life and I feel afraid now. I break up with some man and go crazy, then I go into some deep self-help therapy and my life begins to change drastically for the better, then I meet a man who is better than any other man I’ve ever met, we get together for a while and then something happens and we break up and I have to start all over again with the going crazy part.

So, these two men, they are not bad men. I would have married either one of them at the time we were together and we didn’t break up for any major reasons, but I am afraid… Things are starting to change for the better and I don’t want to get hurt and go crazy and have to start back at square one again.

So, what to do? A friend of mine asked me what I have been doing to change my life, besides writing this blog. I have been doing a lot with the things that involve me and the things I can control, but this relating to other people and letting them affect you, this being vulnerable thing, it gives me a minor panic attack…

So, I am thankful for this outlet that helps me clear my thoughts. This part is supposed to be about living with integrity and if I wasn’t myself, I would tell myself, “Lady, you can do it. It is possible for your life to be going well and for you to have a happy, healthy relationship at the same time. This time, stay focused. You are strong enough now. Sit down and really think and pray about what your next move is, and when you come to an answer, stay true to it.” I would tell myself to keep doing what I was doing and I would give myself encouragement and tell me that I was on the right track.

A friend of mine suggested I try this technique and I’m going to try it. I’m going to look at myself from the outside, as if I was looking at someone else life, someone special that I cared about, I’m going to give myself my own advice and I’m going to take it.

Day 36

Take Your Own Advice

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