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Day 101 – The Other Side

February 12, 2012

I have so much to write about. I haven’t written in about a week. Been trying to figure out which direction to take this blog, especially with the book coming out. Realizing that this is my medicine, too, this opportunity to sit and reflect on what is going on in my mind and what I am trying to create. It makes all the difference in the world when you take time to get in touch with yourself on a regular basis.

Should I tell you that me and the fancy producer have become good friends? We have. Just like that. Should I tell you about all of the other good stuff that has been happening, so much that I actually became a bit overwhelmed? I won’t talk about all that at this moment. What I’d like to do is tell you that I’m on the other side now. I have been initiated into the land of happy. Some people are born into it, but oh, for us travelers who have been through the storms, the prize is so much sweeter!

And now I would like to talk about life on the other side. The happy side of happy. I’m here, Mom! I made it! I know I did a whole lot of crazy stuff, but somehow God stopped me from dying and I am able to experience a day of utter and complete peace. Mom, I’m happy today. I finally think my life is worth something. Aren’t you glad? Your daughter is finally happy… Technical details are still being ironed out in my life, but I’m actually not worried about anything at all. How could I be sitting here, feeling this way, looking at where I have come from, and doubt that anything is possible?

When I started off writing this blog, I was worried about what I would do once I didn’t have any drama or sadness in my life. Like, what do people talk about? I’m pretty adventurous and fighting with some man or the other has always kept the action alive in my life, so what am I gonna’ do now that I’m really not interested in all that painful negative drama? Be nice to folks? Create good stuff? What’s that look like? I’ve never experienced life without struggling or my deep down dreams being manifested. Man, having my mind not worry about stuff is something so totally new to me. I don’t think I have felt this clean since I was little girl. I am excited about the rediscovery of my smile. I am exciting about rediscovering my talents.

I’m not quite clear about how things are going to turn out from this point forward, but I’m not scared. I am learning that my intuition is a very good instructor and guide and I trust it now. I have been initiated into a group of folks that I have heretofore only seen from a distance: The ones that live from a true sense of purpose and have demonstrated that all of their needs are met. They are on some other stuff and I finally feel that I can actually hang with them. I’m good enough. I got to say that again. Like Louise Hay says, I am worthy of the very best in life and I now gratefully, lovingly and willingly accept it…

So, for the blog. Where do I go from here? I thought about starting over from day one, but that seemed a bit silly because I’m not on day one. I have been through a lot before coming to this place, and I’m not ashamed of it. It’s just life. It happens when you’re living and I still think it’s important that we share our struggles. Seriously. Life is so much better without the fakeness.

I guess it’s fitting that this blog is now in a new century. Day 101. Life On The Other Side Of Happy. Adventure no longer equals drama. Hmm. Let’s see what happens…

Day 101

The Other Side

 

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