Day 26 – A New Day Has Come

I woke up good today, with a smile on my heart. It has been so, so long since I’ve felt this way.

My fingers are tingling with life again.

Last night I met with my wanna-be son and he was so excited about us working together! I am glad i didn’t quit on him.

I slept in my new bed last night, the first new bed I have ever bought. The sun is shining through the leaves outside of my window and there is a breeze in the house.

I dumped another almost-man last night (or rather he dumped me) and I don’t even feel bad about it. He wasn’t nice to me.

So i guess I’ll grow to be old and  without a man  or I’ll actually have a good relationship that I’m satisfied with it. It’s Ok with me.

I am learning that there is so much life beyond our present perceptions. I am learning to step into the things I am afraid of. I am learning not to give up. I am learning to believe in good things, even if I have to cry along the way.

Someone told me this the other day: Birth does not smell like roses. It is messy and bloody. There is pushing and struggle involved, and death can be painful as well and it can bring much sorrow to the ones experiencing the loss. But after you have pushed through the mess and the pain, after you have grieved the loss, a new life is born. It always is.

Ameen.

Day 26

A New Day Has Come