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Hi- What this Blog is About

July 20, 2011

Welcome to my blog. Thank you for reading.

I’m sure that many of you are asking the same questions that I have asked at times, ” Who are you and why should I read your blog???”

I’m just a woman trying to learn how to live the life of my dreams, and I’m aware that after reading my writings you might think I’m arrogant, or silly, or just downright stupid. For a long time, the thought of not being accepted has stopped me from doing the one thing that I love to do most: write.

You know what I realized, though? One day I’m going to die. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe ninety years from now. And nothing anyone thought about anything I did will matter. What will matter is whether I lived my life doing what I thought was best.

So I think it’s best that I write this blog…

Where This Comes From

In about January 2010, after yet another break-up with a man I thought I was going to marry,  I had a major breakdown. Nothing in my life made sense any more. I didn’t know what to do or where to go for help. I was crying every day. Over something. Over nothing… I felt like I was just floating in the middle of a vast ocean.

I really don’t know how I made it through that time, but about a year later,  in January 2011, I realized that I had made it through the hardest year of my life without dying and so I decided that it might be worth the effort to learn how not to cry every day, since I was gonna be here for a while.

I told a good friend of mine that I was going to do a self-experiment with becoming un-depressed, and he suggested that I write about it while I’m going through it, noting that most people forget what it was like over here when they get to the other side of happy. Sounded good to me, so for a while I did that. I wrote my friend a journal-esque entry every day about my adventures in not crying. That worked out at first, but then it didn’t. So I stopped. In the meantime I learned some things…

We write in our journals and hide them in the deepest, darkest places, closets, drawers, even under our beds, pretending all the while that we don’t want anyone to read them, when truly it is the only thing we really want. For someone to care. For someone to clean out the drawers and find out who we really are…

Why This Comes

My hope for this blog is that it will help. Both you and I. I think the world will be a better place when people can be honest about who they are and get over this notion that we have to be ashamed of the struggles we have been through. We’ve all had issues and oftentimes, our struggles are the greatest catalysts for our forward transformations.

It makes me happy to share my life with others and feel connected to people, and, since I mostly eat dinner by myself these days, I hope that I can come home and tell you how I’m doing.  Your interest helps me to be accountable for continuing on an authentic path of integrity …

Structure

This blog started out with two categories, but has since evolved to many sections.  It starts with “How Not to Cry Every Day Then”, which are the original writings I sent to my friend when I embarked on this adventure in January 2011, and  “How Not to Cry Every Day and then Some”, which are written in real-time. It then continues on to “How to Live With Integrity” “How to Blossom” and on. The topics change as major shifts are made in my life and the current topic is “The Initiation”.

It is organized by days. Although the most current blog is on the top of the page, the story begins with Day 1, and I invite you to read whatever interests you. I started off writing an entry every day, but I have stopped crying every day a while ago, so now I just write when I am inspired, but they are still numbered by days. Every blog heading is titled with something I learned on that particular day, and they are in order from Day 1 until Day…

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There is a place in the in between. The space between a thought and an action. The space where you know that the thought you just thought will come to pass. Insha’ Allah this is going to be good…

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10 Comments
  1. Thanks for sharing this with me… it shows your bravery and reveals a strong character and a light of hope for your readers. Thank you. Love you. I’ll be reading.

  2. Very open post…I’ll be following your blog because I also have gone through a major breakup and know how it is to cry every single day even if it’s been a whole year past…and I’m still trying to find contentment. Because it was my first time falling in love, I am also still trying to realize that that type of love was not standard and I cannot go with the rest of my life basing upon that standard.

    • Thank you for following. Bless you on your journey. I think that once we make a decision to try and heal, ways are opened up that we could never imagine. xx

  3. I can relate to what you said, break ups or not, life gets dull, sad and tiring, out of sheer loneliness, i know how i wish to have someone to talk to, when i really live in a alien land. I think i will come back for more. thank you for sharing.

  4. I wish you the best in your journey and struggles, keep the faith and believe in yourself….

  5. djmechanica permalink

    I would have to agree people tend to forget as soon as life settles it self, then return to nothing but about the me.

  6. Deb M permalink

    I really like your blog! I would like to nominate you for a Liebster Award!
    For more info follow my link…
    http://wordsandjourneys.wordpress.com/
    Keep blogging!!

  7. What’s up i am kavin, its my first time to commenting anyplace, when i read this post i thought i could also make comment due to this brilliant post.

  8. I must thank you for the efforts you’ve put in penning this blog. I really hope to see the same high-grade content from you later on as well. In truth, your creative writing abilities has inspired me to get my very own blog now 😉

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