Day 602 – Towards

Y’all. I’ve written and deleted or not published a few posts recently, but this one will stay posted. Something just popped in my head that I wanted to share. Towards. The only way to get where you want to go is to go towards it.

When things happen, when we get hurt or when we fail, etc. etc, we often retreat. And sometimes that is necessary. Get sick and need a safe place to be. Lose money or home or stuff and need a place to recollect. Get a family addition and need help with stuff. Etc. We need help. But what I’ve learned in my wise old days is that often, we get stuck. Our retreat becomes our life. We are constantly running away from pain, running away from poverty, running away from this, that and the other and we forget what we were going towards.

And then we are old and saying, “I used to want to do this and that.” And we look at our lives, and we find that we never really tried to do this and that. And this and that could be anything. It could be a career. It could be a type of relationship or a way of relating in the relationships we have. It could be a hobby. It could be a way of knowing oneself. We just stop going towards the things that really mattered to us. And so we never get there.

Or we get really close and then things fall apart and so we quit. I’m guilty of it.

Not a judgement. Just an observation. I’m not quitting, though. You know something else that will happen? When you start going towards a thing, you will see all the things that are in the way. And it might not be the things you thought it was. Most people always think it’s money. Oh, if I had money, I’d do this, that or the other. And then they get money. And they do no such thing.

It’s usually not money. It’s relationship dynamics. It’s unspoken agreements – with yourself and others. It’s deep stuff like self sabotaging beliefs. It’s unresolved trauma. It’s a lack of built skills. It’s a lack of support systems set up to help you thrive. It’s an inability to source support. It’s low self esteem that makes you believe you’re not worth sh*t and you don’t even deserve support without some deep, deathly effort. It’s lack of faith and awareness that will have you giving away years’ worth of gains when things get hard. It’s ego and an unwillingness to see the places where growth is needed.

Things might get hard. They might not. But they most likely will get very, very real if you choose to do a thing you’ve never done. I pray you have the courage, faith and support to keep walking, crawling, running towards your fulfilled life. That is my prayer for you today. And my prayer for myself.

Bless you.

Sincerely,

Me

Day 602 – Towards