Day 94 – No Regrets
My heart is open and I am no longer surprised when miracles happen…
Yesterday was quite amazing. Met with a very famous artist about illustrating my children’s book. HE’S GOING TO WORK WITH ME!!! When I came in the meeting room, he offered me some green juice! I knew it was going to be a great meeting after that. It was more than great. A publishing deal is coming soon, and I know the timing is only a function of my effort.
I know I have the talent. Of course I’m not the best at my craft yet. I may never be the best at my craft, but I am a lot better than some people who are much more financially successful than me, and I’ll only get better and better as I keep practicing….
This trip has been wonderful so far. In two days I made so many connections, got advice and leads that would have cost me hundreds of dollars, and even made friends! Female friends!!! I like New York now and I’m no longer scared to come back here on my own. I’m no longer scared to go anywhere on my own, in fact.
I am learning to be myself even outside of my comfort zone in my room and finding the world to be a very exciting place full of opportunity. I’ve got some social things to do today. Business is done and now we play.
Something dawned on me the other night. I was in the midst of freaking out and I called a friend who suggested that I say my prayers. I didn’t want to pray on these wood floors, so he suggested praying on the bed, and I did. I spent a long time praying and meditating until I could bring myself to a place where I felt at peace and unafraid. Then I was able to do some work and prep for my meeting.
During my prayers, I came to something. The way you can live with no regrets. You have to give your all. Sometimes things may not work out the way you intended, but it is much better to say “I tried my best. I gave my all and things just didn’t work” than to sit around wondering what could have and may have happened.
I have been trying and my life has just been getting better and better. The more I give of myself, the more I receive and the more I realize that we humans are a resilient species. I am beyond motivated and now able to take the next steps to get my writings into the world, and I think it’s going to be easy.
The meeting I had yesterday was with a very prominent public figure. He was so down-to-earth and helpful, yet smart and successful. He made me realize that I can be successful and still be a cool human being. It was nice to see that.
I’m not even going to speak on my man life. Let’s just say the tides have turned. I have decided to honor and respect myself, and I’ve also decided to show love and care when I feel compelled and the response from men has been overwhelming. I no longer have dysfunctional relationships. Men are nice to me these days and the mean ones just disappear and I gladly let them go… I don’t think it will be too long before I have a husband. I can actually imagine that now: a life where I am doing the work that I have been Divinely inspired to do and where I also have a wonderful man by my side and some babies. Wow. Babies. That’s another thought…
So here’s to a day of wonder! Here’s to a day of honesty, integrity and love, a day of putting forth effort in the direction of what is good for me and all involved with me. Here is to forgiveness, growth, a clean heart, and acceptance. Here is to living life today! No regrets…