Day 49 – Just Do It
My mom called me earlier and read me a story I had written when I was ten years old. I didn’t even realize I had written it until she read the last line, and it was so good! I started crying… LOL. So?
Why do people act like crying is such a big deal? They’re just tears!
I’m still alive and the neck pain/headache didn’t kill me. My neck still hurts and my head hurts when I move it too much, but at least I’m functional.
Right now, I’m sitting in an empty classroom at the school I graduated from and I am working on my script. It’s cold in here and I’m tired and hungry and I don’t know how to transition into the next act of my story, so I’m procrastinating and considering not meeting my completion deadline, which is in exactly 28 hours…
There is enough time to finish this, but that would mean I won’t sleep that much this evening, I can’t call anyone just to shoot the breeze, and no daydreaming for me tonight. Also no web-surfing, internet games, talking to my sister or any other social interaction.
This has been the hardest thing for me to do, but I’m about to do it. How, Lord? How do I get over whatever is blocking me from finishing this seemingly simple assignment?…
Just got kicked out of my classroom and now I’m in the library. I don’t know how they did it, the Trumans and Santiago’s, the Harriet Tubmans and the single momma’s, the people who do a thing that seems hard, the people who follow a dream against all odds. I know I’ve been one of them before, but I don’t remember how I did it. I guess things just never seemed hard before.
OK. So, now. This I have decided to do. Cryng is over. We are at the flying part now. I have decided to fly now. Today God, I learned that you are the giver of Life. I know from my past that you are able to make the things that seem impossible possible. I know that you have put it in me to write, and so I am going to lay down the worries. I know that you have given me, us, this gift, called will, and that when our will is in alignment with your design for us, then there is no limit to your aide. So dear God, tonight I solicit your aide. I choose to finish this project. I choose to step into my life and my own shoes. I choose now today and forever more to live my purpose here on Earth.
I choose it, and I allow it to be easy. I allow it be easy. I allow it to be easy. I allow it to be easy. I allow the words to flow. I allow myself to be well. God I allow myself to be strong and happy. Smart and kind. Successful and Loving. Powerful and humble. Creative and grounded in the truth. Tonight, God, with your permission, I choose to step into the life that you have destined for me, and I release everything, everything, old mental patterns, beliefs, people, thoughts and actions that are not in alignment with what I am creating. I release all of it. All of it. All of it. And I accept all of it.
This is the truth of my life. Ameen.
Just Do It