Day 29 – Finish Something
It’s a really nice day out today. I don’t have to go to work until the late afternoon, so I slept in this morning and had so many good dreams. I don’t remember any of them, but I feel so refreshed. My heart is beating strong…I thought about Mr. X a lot. It doesn’t matter which one. Let’s just say, in my daydreams, we had the relationship that we never had in real life, and it was grand! A dream come true to say the least. I’d like to be able to do that in my real life; create loving relationships where our original intention is sustained over time.
So, I was waiting on a miracle yesterday, and one happened! I’ve been submitting for jobs to this modeling/event staffing company for over four years now and they have never booked me on anything. Yesterday, as usual, I submitted for an event they were staffing and somebody actually called and booked me! I will be going in to work later this afternoon, so I’ve got to spruce myself up today. I’ve been out of pretty girl land for a while…
I started reading “Calling in the One” today. You know what i like so much about that book? It encourages you to do stuff. Not just read about it, not just write about it, it encourages you to get off the bed, out of the room, maybe even stay in the room, but to get out of your head and do something to move yourself forward. And then it encourages you to keep doing it.
I’ve been writing a lot, and I’m glad, because before I couldn’t even do this much, but there are a lot of unfinished projects, unfinished work, still sitting in my head, written on these pages but unexecuted. The thought of finishing them actually makes my heart race. Why is that? Why are we so afraid of our success? I know that once I do the work, once I’ve acted on these ideas in my head, life is actually going to be different.
I have so much on my “needs to be done” list. I can finish one of them today though, so I’m going to that.
Time to get to work.